A Hand Full of Pills and a Miracle
After going blind, having no one there for me, and feeling like I should have been buried along with my husband; I had a major bout of depression set in. I had always had dreams of having a bright future and being able to make my own way, but now it seemed as if my life truly was over. I couldn't even see a future for myself at this point.
I decided that if no one cared, then there was no reason for me to be on this Earth anymore. It wouldn't make a difference to a single soul if I was gone. No one would miss me. I found a bottle of my husband's pain pills and put some in my hand. He didn't need them anymore, but maybe I did. I would just leave this world and go to be with the only people who really cared about me, my family.
I made myself a very strong drink and sat down on the couch. Just as I was putting my hand to my mouth to take the pills, my phone rang. It was an Amish man that I had become friends with several years before through another friend. We were introduced at a networking event. He and his wife were good people and his family of 8 children were a true pleasure to be around.
I answered the phone. First this man asked me how I was doing. I lied and told him that I was doing okay. I guess something or someone told him otherwise. Out of the blue he started to describe to me about a time in his life that he wanted to commit suicide. He said that he just didn't feel strong enough to go on and wanted everything that was going wrong to stop.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing! How could this man possibly know that I was sitting on the couch with a handful of pills getting ready to do away with myself? There is only one explanation. It was a God Thing!
I started telling him about my eyes, how I had gone blind, and how I needed to have operations on my eyes, but didn't have any healthcare insurance. I also didn't have anyone to drive me around, get anything from the store including food and necessities, and I had no one to take me to the eye surgeon or the hospital. By this time I was crying, but thankful to have someone on the other end of the phone who cared!
My Amish friend wanted to help me, but of course could not drive. He told me about a woman who had lost her husband right before I lost mine. He said that he was going to call her and ask her to call me. He asked me if that was okay. I told him that it was. If I had no family or other friends to help me, then I had no choice other than to reach out to strangers.
This wonderful woman that my Amish friend knew not only called me, but offered to take me to the grocery store or do my shopping for me, take me to doctors appointments, or anywhere else that I needed to go. I asked her why she would do that for me, she doesn't even know me. She replied, "Because everyone needs help sometimes, and it's the right thing to do." I started crying again. It seemed like a huge boulder had been lifted off of my chest. Then she asked me if she could pray with me. I of course said yes.
That woman came and did everything she said she would. She even called numerous times and asked me to go out to lunch or dinner with her and she said she would pay for it. She became a friend of mine, and still is to this day.
Lesson Learned: When everything seems totally hopeless, God will provide a way through.
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