Addicted and In Denial
My husband kept having kidney stones and health issues. Before long he was on so many medications that we should have bought stock in the drug companies. He was given more and more narcotics for pain. Before long, he couldn't do without them.
One Christmas my step daughter and her family came home. We had our typical Christmas Eve gathering, and everybody's favorite papaw, my husband just sat in his chair most of the time sleeping. Our oldest granddaughter (the one that he took for lawnmower rides at the farm when she was a baby), dearly loved her Papaw. They came to visit several more times before they returned home. Each time papaw was literally sitting in the chair with his head back and his tongue hanging out the side of his mouth. I had begun to question him about his pain medication and how often he was taking it. He didn't even know anymore.
The day that my step daughter and family were leaving, they stopped by so the kids could tell papaw goodbye. Not me, just papaw. That day, the oldest granddaughter ran outside because she was so upset. She was crying and said that she just knew she would never see her papaw again after this because he was going to die! At that point, I couldn't stand to see this little girl hurting like this. I talked to them all and told them that I believed that papaw's biggest problem right now was that he was taking too many pain pills. I told them that I would take his pain pills and dispense them to him at the appropriate times.
After everyone went home, I tried that. My husband got violent with me over his pain medication. He was going to control it himself or else. After a while I just gave in, let him kill himself with the pain meds if he wanted to. I was just so tired of fighting losing battles with him!
Lesson Learned: Addiction can make people uncaring and violent.
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