The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly
Your pregnancy is supposed to be a happy time, mine was a chaotic mess! I still couldn't believe it! I was an absolute nervous wreck! It wasn't getting better as we got closer to the birth of our child, it was getting worse.
One day my husband and I went out to eat. On the way back I asked him, "Well, now that I'm 7 months pregnant, and 'a little fat lady' as your mom says, what do you think about this baby now?" He looked at me and said, "I told you, I don't want a baby. I don't feel any different now than I did then!" I felt hot tears rolling down my face, and all I could do was stare out the window. I couldn't even speak because the lump in my throat was so big, and it paralleled the ache in my heart.
When I wasn't working I was crying. At my next doctor's appointment I told my doctor what was going on. He suggested that I take Prozac to help me. When I asked about the safety of that, he said, "You are so despondent that you have got to do something. The benefit will outweigh the risk. You are in your third trimester so you and the baby should be fine." So, I started taking Prozac just like the doctor ordered.
The antidepressant did seem to help some. At least I was able to get through my days without crying continuously. It was sure a lonely time though. I couldn't talk to to my husband, and I couldn't talk to my daughter. I did confide in my sister though. I told her everything that happened. It didn't help matters any that all through this pregnancy I had been in a daily state of "morning, afternoon and evening sickness". I even thought about buying stock in the Tums Company because I was eating them like they were candy! The people at work even started to tease me and call the restroom my new office.
I got in my Explorer to go home from work one day. After hoisting my big belly in, I had a sharp pain. It felt like something snapped in my back. I could barely move. I called my husband and talked to him all the way home. I told him that I was scared that something bad was happening. By the time I got home I was in agony. My back hurt so bad that I couldn't stand it. He took one look at me and said, "Come on, I'm taking you to the hospital!" We got to the local small town hospital, and after waiting forever, I finally got to see an ER doctor. He said it was just a pulled muscle in my back, and told me to take some Tylenol and I would be fine. I told him that I couldn't hardly walk, and asked how I was supposed to go the work the next day. He just repeated what he had already told me.
On the way home things got worse. I was in so much pain I was crying. My husband told me he was going to take me to the hospital where the baby was going to be born. It was a better hospital. So, for the second time that evening we went to a hospital ER. This time we found out that I had gallstones! They really didn't want to do anything about it until after the baby was born, so they gave me some pain medication and told me what foods and drinks to stay away from.
The good news is that during this time, my daughter seemed to be much happier now that she had met a new boy.
Lesson Learned: Your emotions can affect your physical health.
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